when we were looking for this Indian restaurant downtown called Little Delhi, we were led over many incredibly steep hills. my thigh and calve muscles burned but I kept steady breathing and kept going. after about 7 such hills of concrete, we plateaued and I was relieved, even picking up the pace a little…until I saw The Hill in front of us. No joke, it was one block of about 70 degrees steep. Honestly, I ought to have kept my head down…the only reason I looked up was because everyone ahead of me (I was always the last in the pack) started sarcastically laughing and one person said, “are you serious?!”
there it was, The Hill. I had lost all feeling in my legs by that point, and seeing as everyone was halfway up already, decided to keep going in hopes of conquering it without collapsing. I stopped twice to catch my breath. as I neared the summit, I could hear astonished gasps and murmured exclamations. then, I saw it for myself — what a sight!
the colorful city surrounded us behind a slight, flattering haze. I managed to let out a weak, whoa-, despite the lack of oxygen in my system. my dazed vision caught glimmers of golden, dusky light. we were literally on top of the wor—
“sorry, guys, we went the wrong way,” and down the grade they went.
Today, my Dad revealed that I resent not being able to take my time to enjoy the summits of life. I seem to want to bask in the glow and details of being higher than most other moments in my life, when those are not really the moments that are most momentous to Him. He told me that He is closest with every difficult step in the journey. Walking all of San Francisco has gotten me back into daunting physical activity, and so much growth blooms when I trust His leading and walk up and over dangerously steep inclines. Climbing down is not all that easy either, but it is important to enjoy every single moment with Him, to not undermine or miss the moments of hard work by lusting for summits or whining about their cost.
He walks with me always. I am never alone. in every step, His presence is like Mint. Eternal. Fixating. A Mighty Rush. Mysterious yet Comforting. Daring. Quiet, Fierce, and Alive.
His Love is far from pale…and bolder than bold.